When you are recovering from any physical or mental injury, you judge every second of every day whether you feel better or not, your heart sinks if you feel worse and leaps when you feel better, and this self-monitoring, which comes with many perils of its own, happens every second so that you are truly living in the present moment or what feels like the present moment, which, as we know, does not really exist. The present moment is an illusion like the rest of life, but if we are getting better we don’t care about any of this. When we are not gettin better, we sink into morbid speculation which only makes matters worse.
Waiting. Waiting for my father's death, can't come soon enough. Waiting for the only check I've seen this year. Waiting to respect myself more. Waiting for chances worth taking. But I'm not waiting on a world worth living in; this shit is /happening/.
Life, I believe, does require patience. It does require waiting... but that waiting needn't always be passive, or the only action one is taking. Some things are entirely external, we have no control over them whatsoever, but we always have some control over our reactions, our interpretations, our analyses. Just as not-choosing is a form of choice, not-waiting is a form of waiting.
I'm patient for the things I cannot affect, but I am not passive.
Waiting for feedback on a near final draft. This wait reminds me of Waiting for Godot. If I don’t get the feedback from my mentor tomorrow, I am moving on.
I needed this today! Thank you!
Thank you for reading!
When you are recovering from any physical or mental injury, you judge every second of every day whether you feel better or not, your heart sinks if you feel worse and leaps when you feel better, and this self-monitoring, which comes with many perils of its own, happens every second so that you are truly living in the present moment or what feels like the present moment, which, as we know, does not really exist. The present moment is an illusion like the rest of life, but if we are getting better we don’t care about any of this. When we are not gettin better, we sink into morbid speculation which only makes matters worse.
You're so right (per usual). I hope today is full of more moments of upswing than the opposite!!
Waiting for the completion of my seemingly endless editing of my non-fiction manuscript. Sheesh!
Time always seems to tick slowly for things like that. But it will be worth it!
Thank you, Kara. You are good at making us think!
Warmest,
Doug
Waiting. Waiting for my father's death, can't come soon enough. Waiting for the only check I've seen this year. Waiting to respect myself more. Waiting for chances worth taking. But I'm not waiting on a world worth living in; this shit is /happening/.
Thank you for sharing, Adam. Maybe that's the counter to "waiting until" -- what's actually happening while we're in the process of waiting.
Life, I believe, does require patience. It does require waiting... but that waiting needn't always be passive, or the only action one is taking. Some things are entirely external, we have no control over them whatsoever, but we always have some control over our reactions, our interpretations, our analyses. Just as not-choosing is a form of choice, not-waiting is a form of waiting.
I'm patient for the things I cannot affect, but I am not passive.
LOVE that, Adam. Thank you.
Waiting for feedback on a near final draft. This wait reminds me of Waiting for Godot. If I don’t get the feedback from my mentor tomorrow, I am moving on.
Love that you're setting a timeline on this; endless waiting is not our friend!
Waiting until I feel more confident!
Bit by bit. I believe in you!