I have a lot of “feelings” that I’m trying to process on this one. I conflated the questions to my job rather than my project (Sunset & Yellow Jeep & reading & Bookstagram), should have said projects – with an “s” – and the looming question of retirement. So, yes, my job is good 95% of the time and I like what I do and who I work with. But am I willing to keep working at this job which really is rather mundane and boring in order to keep getting a regular paycheck? At this time, I don’t know. Your words: change something; you’re worth the time it takes, make me stop and bold them. And yet, I’m still afraid.
Asking the questions and sitting with the answers - even if you're uncertain - may just be the first step? I feel like you will know if and when it's time to truly leave, you will reach a wall and say, "I'm going over," instead of "I'm staying here." And if there are any lingering questions for you regarding the hows and whens and logistical parts of retiring, maybe try to seek the answers for those things now, instead of letting them add to the fear. Usually my fear comes up when I don't know the answers to questions I forgot I should ask! You will do great...
I have a lot of “feelings” that I’m trying to process on this one. I conflated the questions to my job rather than my project (Sunset & Yellow Jeep & reading & Bookstagram), should have said projects – with an “s” – and the looming question of retirement. So, yes, my job is good 95% of the time and I like what I do and who I work with. But am I willing to keep working at this job which really is rather mundane and boring in order to keep getting a regular paycheck? At this time, I don’t know. Your words: change something; you’re worth the time it takes, make me stop and bold them. And yet, I’m still afraid.
Asking the questions and sitting with the answers - even if you're uncertain - may just be the first step? I feel like you will know if and when it's time to truly leave, you will reach a wall and say, "I'm going over," instead of "I'm staying here." And if there are any lingering questions for you regarding the hows and whens and logistical parts of retiring, maybe try to seek the answers for those things now, instead of letting them add to the fear. Usually my fear comes up when I don't know the answers to questions I forgot I should ask! You will do great...
Thank you for your insightful advice and two great cats!
So glad you enjoyed them - they really spoke to me this week :)